Hope Deferred

There's a verse in Proverbs that says "hope deferred makes a heart sick, but desire fulfilled is a tree of life."

I'm beginning to wonder if we'll EVER close on the sale of our house AND the purchase of the one we want.  I know this has only been since April that we began this process. So Yes!!!  I know that things like this take time and YES I know that I'm being impatient and rather unrealistic in my hopings. And YES, you  may hear a little whine in my voice and YES  a tiny bit of frustration.

It takes me awhile to emotionally process a life change but once I've done that I've already moved on emotionally. So when the practicalities of those changes don't coincide with my emotional state - I tend to be one frustrated woman. I am ready to move on. I have projects I want to get started on in this new place. I have things I want to do and get accomplished and I can't do any of those things until we close on the house and until then here I sit surrounded by boxes and the reminder that I am in stasis - hanging in limbo - waiting.  Oh how I'm beginning to have a strong dislike for that word. We don't even have a closing date established yet!!!!   Great!!!  I'm not good at all with waiting. I feel as if I'm losing this battle.

Yes I am a drama queen and yes I need to take a chill pill and yes I need to breathe. So I will now stop my typing and take a nap in the midst of all my boxes.

I will say to my soul that my God is faithful. He is my desire fulfilled. In Him is everything that I need to live life. So once again - I take a deep breath and jump back into the current of life and continue to wait. Life is still happening.  Friends are struggling with real life issues and my home situation is not a life or death struggle. Get my eyes fixed back on the Author and Finisher of my faith. He keeps me steady. He keeps me strong. And yes He waits with me. Holding me and my friends in the Palm of His Hands. We are safe there as we wait for hope to be fulfilled maybe here in this life and maybe not until the next life but it doesn't really matter. What matters is where my heart is in the waiting. So I pull up my big girl panties and get on with the waiting and WAIT WELL