What Do I Fear?

I'm not generally a fearful person. But this morning as I was sitting and quieting my heart, I began to ask myself some questions and I heard the Lord asking me what it is that I fear.

You see, I've been experimenting over the years and sticking my toes into the water and trying my hand at some things but never fully committing to anything. Not fully jumping in head first. Always just skirting around making something legit and always trying to stay under the radar. And.....hence the questions. Because once again, I'm putting my toes in the water and trying to feel the temperature before I fully commit to it all.

And that is what I want and love to do with food. I've done cake decorating before. Heck, I had a wedding catering home business for 5 years. That was about 15 years ago. But just when, it really started to take off and I was seeing a profit, I got skittish because I was getting to the point where I needed to get a legit, certified, health department standard kitchen and at the time, we were not financially able to pull it off, so I quit. And...I allowed one discouraging situation to side line me.

While I worked at the hospital and clinic - I put myself out there for baked goods and sold them. But only through word of mouth and once again out of my own kitchen and thus not totally committing myself. And that was 5-10 years ago.

So, here I am once again, at another point in time looking at and having a passion and vision to start something up again. And it has to do with food. So, do I once again - just dabble and check the safety with my toes or do I fully dive in? I don't have financial woes to be my excuse. I don't have raising children as my excuse, so the question is what in the world is stopping me?

*Fear of failure. If I don't put myself out there in the public eye - then it doesn't matter if I fail
*Fear of commitment - seriously, I want to be free with my time. I'm not naive about a retail food business to know what kind of time commitment it is.
*Fear of not having what it takes to pull it off

So there, I'm putting my fears out there - I'm being transparent and vulnerable and honest with where I'm at. Now, I have to deal with it.

Let's see where this takes me.  "Never let your fear decide your future". I will NOT allow fear to sideline me once again. I will NOT allow fear to control my life or my choices.

I do want to be smart and count the cost of what this will take and that is what I'm doing. I'm talking with smart people and business minded people.

I'm in for an adventure and I'm well on my way - I will keep you all posted.
Thanks for sharing the journey with me.